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PART III
"THE ASSASSIN"
19
I've never really seen Boggs angry before. Not when
I've disobeyed his orders or puked on him, not even
when Gale broke his nose. But he's angry when he
returns from his phone call with the president. The first thing
he does is instruct Soldier Jackson, his second in
command, to set up a two-person, round-the-clock guard on
Peeta. Then he takes me on a walk, weaving through the
sprawling tent encampment until our squad is far
behind us.
"He'll try and kill me anyway," I say.
"Especially here. Where there are so many bad memories to set him
off."
"I'll keep him contained, Katniss," says
Boggs.
"Why does Coin want me dead now?" I ask.
"She denies she does," he answers.
"But we know it's true," I say. "And
you must at least have a theory."
Boggs gives me a long, hard look before he answers.
"Here's as much as I know. The president doesn't
like you. She never did. It was Peeta she wanted
rescued from the arena, but no one else agreed. It made
matters worse when you forced her to give the other
victors immunity. But even that could be overlooked in view
of how well you've performed."
"Then what is it?" I insist.
"Sometime in the near future, this war will be
resolved. A new leader will be chosen," says Boggs.
I roll my eyes. "Boggs, no one thinks I'm going
to be the leader."
"No. They don't," he agrees. "But
you'll throw support to someone. Would it be President Coin? Or
someone else?"
"I don't know. I've never thought about it,"
I say.
"If your immediate answer isn't Coin, then you're
a threat. You're the face of the rebellion. You may have
more influence than any other single person,"
says Boggs. "Outwardly, the most you've ever done is tolerated
her."
"So she'll kill me to shut me up." The
minute I say the words, I know they're true.
"She doesn't need you as a rallying point now. As
she said, your primary objective, to unite the districts, has
succeeded," Boggs reminds me. "These current
propos could be done without you. There's only one last thing
you could do to add fire to the rebellion."
"Die," I say quietly.
"Yes. Give us a martyr to fight for," says
Boggs. "But that's not going to happen under my watch, Soldier
Everdeen. I'm planning for you to have a long
life."
"Why?" This kind of thinking will only bring
him trouble. "You don't owe me anything."
"Because you've earned it," he says.
"Now get back to your squad."
I know I should feel appreciative of Boggs sticking his
neck out for me, but really I'm just frustrated. I mean,
how can I steal his Holo and desert now? Betraying him
was complicated enough without this whole new layer of
debt. I already owe him for saving my life.
Seeing the cause of my current dilemma calmly pitching
his tent back at our site makes me furious. "What
time is my watch?" I ask Jackson.
She squints at me in doubt, or maybe she's just trying
to get my face in focus. "I didn't put you in the
rotation."
"Why not?" I ask.
"I'm not sure you could really shoot Peeta, if it
came to it," she says.
I speak up so the whole squad can hear me clearly.
"I wouldn't be shooting Peeta. He's gone. Johanna's
right. It'd be just like shooting another of the
Capitol's mutts." It feels good to say something horrible about him,
out loud, in public, after all the humiliation I've
felt since his return.
"Well, that sort of comment isn't recommending
you either," says Jackson.
"Put her in the rotation," I hear Boggs say
behind me.
Jackson shakes her head and makes a note.
"Midnight to four. You're on with me."
Jackson shakes her head and makes a note.
"Midnight to four. You're on with me."
The dinner whistle sounds, and Gale and I line up at
the canteen. "Do you want me to kill him?" he asks
bluntly.
"That'll get us both sent back for sure," I
say. But even though I'm furious, the brutality of the offer rattles me.
"I can deal with him."
"You mean until you take off? You and your paper
map and possibly a Holo if you can get your hands on it?"
So Gale has not missed my preparations. I hope they
haven't been so obvious to the others. None of them know
my mind like he does, though. "You're not
planning on leaving me behind, are you?" he asks.
Up until this point, I was. But having my hunting
partner to watch my back doesn't sound like a bad idea.
"As your fellow soldier, I have to strongly
recommend you stay with your squad. But I can't stop you from coming,
can I?" He grins. "No. Not unless you want
me to alert the rest of the army."
Squad 451 and the television crew collect dinner from
the canteen and gather in a tense circle to eat. At
first I think that Peeta is the cause of the unease,
but by the end of the meal, I realize more than a few unfriendly
looks have been directed my way. This is a quick
turnaround, since I'm pretty sure when Peeta appeared the
whole team was concerned about how dangerous he might
be, especially to me. But it's not until I get a phone
call through to Haymitch that I understand.
"What are you trying to do? Provoke him into an
attack?" he asks me.
"Of course not. I just want him to leave me
alone," I say.
"Well, he can't. Not after what the Capitol put
him through," says Haymitch. "Look, Coin may have sent him
there hoping he'd kill you, but Peeta doesn't know
that. He doesn't understand what's happened to him. So you
can't blame him--"
"I don't!" I say.
"You do! You're punishing him over and over for
things that are out of his control. Now, I'm not saying you
shouldn't have a fully loaded weapon next to you round
the clock. But I think it's time you flipped this little scenario
around in your head. If you'd been taken by the
Capitol, and hijacked, and then tried to kill Peeta, is this the way
he would be treating you?" demands Haymitch.
I fall silent. It isn't. It isn't how he would be
treating me at all. He would be trying to get me back at any cost.
Not shutting me out, abandoning me, greeting me with
hostility at every turn.
"You and me, we made a deal to try and save him.
Remember?" Haymitch says. When I don't respond, he
disconnects after a curt "Try and remember."
The autumn day turns from brisk to cold. Most of the
squad hunker down in their sleeping bags. Some
sleep under the open sky, close to the heater in the
center of our camp, while others retreat to their tents. Leeg 1
has finally broken down over her sister's death, and
her muffled sobs reach us through the canvas. I huddle in my
tent, thinking over Haymitch's words. Realizing with
shame that my fixation with assassinating Snow has allowed
me to ignore a much more difficult problem. Trying to
rescue Peeta from the shadowy world the hijacking has
stranded him in. I don't know how to find him, let
alone lead him out. I can't even conceive of a plan. It makes the
task of crossing a loaded arena, locating Snow, and
putting a bullet through his head look like child's play.
At midnight, I crawl out of my tent and position
myself on a camp stool near the heater to take my watch
with Jackson. Boggs told Peeta to sleep out in full
view where the rest of us could keep an eye on him. He isn't
sleeping, though. Instead, he sits with his bag pulled
up to his chest, clumsily trying to make knots in a short
length of rope. I know it well. It's the one Finnick
lent me that night in the bunker. Seeing it in his hands, it's like
Finnick's echoing what Haymitch just said, that I've
cast off Peeta. Now might be a good time to begin to remedy
that. If I could think of something to say. But I
can't. So I don't. I just let the sounds of soldiers' breathing fill the
night.
After about an hour, Peeta speaks up. "These last
couple of years must have been exhausting for you.
Trying to decide whether to kill me or not. Back and
forth. Back and forth."
That seems grossly unfair, and my first impulse is to
say something cutting. But I revisit my conversation
with Haymitch and try to take the first tentative step
in Peeta's direction. "I never wanted to kill you. Except when I
thought you were helping the Careers kill me. After
that, I always thought of you as...an ally." That's a good safe
word. Empty of any emotional obligation, but
nonthreatening.
"Ally." Peeta says the word slowly, tasting
it. "Friend. Lover. Victor. Enemy. Fiancee. Target. Mutt. Neighbor.
Hunter. Tribute. Ally. I'll add it to the list of
words I use to try to figure you out." He weaves the rope in and out of
his
fingers. "The problem is, I can't tell what's
real anymore, and what's made up."
The cessation of rhythmic breathing suggests that
either people have woken or have never really been
asleep at all. I suspect the latter.
Finnick's voice rises from a bundle in the shadows.
"Then you should ask, Peeta. That's what Annie does."
"Ask who?" Peeta says. "Who can I
trust?"
"Well, us for starters. We're your squad,"
says Jackson.
"You're my guards," he points out.
"That, too," she says. "But you saved a
lot of lives in Thirteen. It's not the kind of thing we forget."
In the quiet that follows, I try to imagine not being
able to tell illusion from reality. Not knowing if Prim or my
mother loved me. If Snow was my enemy. If the person
across the heater saved or sacrificed me. With very little
effort, my life rapidly morphs into a nightmare. I
suddenly want to tell Peeta everything about who he is, and who I
am, and how we ended up here. But I don't know how to
start. Worthless. I'm worthless.
At a few minutes before four, Peeta turns to me again.
"Your favorite color...it's green?"
"That's right." Then I think of something to
add. "And yours is orange."
"Orange?" He seems unconvinced.
"Not bright orange. But soft. Like the
sunset," I say. "At least, that's what you told me once."
"Oh." He closes his eyes briefly, maybe
trying to conjure up that sunset, then nods his head. "Thank you."
But more words tumble out. "You're a painter.
You're a baker. You like to sleep with the windows open. You
never take sugar in your tea. And you always
double-knot your shoelaces."
Then I dive into my tent before I do something stupid
like cry.
In the morning, Gale, Finnick, and I go out to shoot
some glass off the buildings for the camera crew. When
we get back to camp, Peeta's sitting in a circle with
the soldiers from 13, who are armed but talking openly with
him. Jackson has devised a game called "Real or
Not Real" to help Peeta. He mentions something he thinks
happened, and they tell him if it's true or imagined,
usually followed by a brief explanation.
"Most of the people from Twelve were killed in
the fire."
"Real. Less than nine hundred of you made it to
Thirteen alive."
"The fire was my fault."
"Not real. President Snow destroyed Twelve the
way he did Thirteen, to send a message to the rebels."
This seems like a good idea until I realize that I'll
be the only one who can confirm or deny most of what
weighs on him. Jackson breaks us up into watches. She
matches up Finnick, Gale, and me each with a soldier
from 13. This way Peeta will always have access to
someone who knows him more personally. It's not a steady
conversation. Peeta spends a long time considering
even small pieces of information, like where people bought
their soap back home. Gale fills him in on a lot of
stuff about 12; Finnick is the expert on both of Peeta's Games,
as he was a mentor in the first and a tribute in the
second. But since Peeta's greatest confusion centers around
me--and not everything can be explained simply--our
exchanges are painful and loaded, even though we touch
on only the most superficial of details. The color of
my dress in 7. My preference for cheese buns. The name of
our math teacher when we were little. Reconstructing
his memory of me is excruciating. Perhaps it isn't even
possible after what Snow did to him. But it does feel
right to help him try.
The next afternoon, we're notified that the whole
squad is needed to stage a fairly complicated propo.
Peeta's been right about one thing: Coin and Plutarch
are unhappy with the quality of footage they're getting from
the Star Squad. Very dull. Very uninspiring. The
obvious response is that they never let us do anything but playact
with our guns. However, this is not about defending
ourselves, it's about coming up with a usable product. So
today, a special block has been set aside for filming.
It even has a couple of active pods on it. One unleashes a
spray of gunfire. The other nets the invader and traps
them for either interrogation or execution, depending on
the captors' preference. But it's still an unimportant
residential block with nothing of strategic consequence.
The television crew means to provide a sense of
heightened jeopardy by releasing smoke bombs and
adding gunfire sound effects. We suit up in heavy
protective gear, even the crew, as if we're heading into the
heart of battle. Those of us with specialty weapons
are allowed to take them along with our guns. Boggs gives
Peeta back his gun, too, although he makes sure to
tell him in a loud voice that it's only loaded with blanks.
Peeta just shrugs. "I'm not much of a shot
anyway." He seems preoccupied with watching Pollux, to the
point where it's getting a little worrisome, when he
finally puzzles it out and begins to speak with agitation. "You're
an Avox, aren't you? I can tell by the way you
swallow. There were two Avoxes with me in prison. Darius and
Lavinia, but the guards mostly called them the
redheads. They'd been our servants in the Training Center, so they
arrested them, too. I watched them being tortured to
death. She was lucky. They used too much voltage and her
heart stopped right off. It took days to finish him
off. Beating, cutting off parts. They kept asking him questions,
but he couldn't speak, he just made these horrible
animal sounds. They didn't want information, you know? They
wanted me to see it."
Peeta looks around at our stunned faces, as if waiting
for a reply. When none is forthcoming, he asks,
"Real or not real?" The lack of response
upsets him more. "Real or not real?!" he demands.
"Real," says Boggs. "At least, to the
best of my knowledge...real."
Peeta sags. "I thought so. There was
nothing...shiny about it." He wanders away from the group, muttering
something about fingers and toes.
I move to Gale, press my forehead into the body armor
where his chest should be, feel his arm tighten
around me. We finally know the name of the girl who we
watched the Capitol abduct from the woods of 12, the
fate of the Peacekeeper friend who tried to keep Gale
alive. This is no time to call up happy moments of
remembrance. They lost their lives because of me. I
add them to my personal list of kills that began in the arena
and now includes thousands. When I look up, I see it
has taken Gale differently. His expression says that there
are not enough mountains to crush, enough cities to
destroy. It promises death.
With Peeta's grisly account fresh in our minds, we
crunch through the streets of broken glass until we reach
our target, the block we are to take. It is a real, if
small, goal to accomplish. We gather around Boggs to examine
the Holo projection of the street. The gunfire pod is
positioned about a third of the way down, just above an
apartment awning. We should be able to trigger it with
bullets. The net pod is at the far end, almost the next
corner. This will require someone to set off the body
sensor mechanism. Everyone volunteers except Peeta, who
doesn't seem to know quite what's going on. I don't
get picked. I get sent to Messalla, who dabs some makeup
on my face for the anticipated close-ups.
The squad positions itself under Boggs's direction,
and then we have to wait for Cressida to get the
cameramen in place as well. They're both to our left,
with Castor toward the front and Pollux bringing up the rear
so they'll be sure not to record each other. Messalla
sets off a couple of smoke charges for atmosphere. Since
this is both a mission and a shoot, I'm about to ask
who's in charge, my commander or my director, when
Cressida calls, "Action!"
We slowly proceed down the hazy street, just like one
of our exercises in the Block. Everyone has at least
one section of windows to blow out, but Gale's
assigned the real target. When he hits the pod, we take cover--
ducking into doorways or flattening onto the pretty,
light orange and pink paving stones--as a hail of bullets
sweeps back and forth over our heads. After a while,
Boggs orders us forward.
Cressida stops us before we can rise, since she needs
some close-up shots. We take turns reenacting our
responses. Falling to the ground, grimacing, diving
into alcoves. We know it's supposed to be serious business,
but the whole thing feels a little ridiculous.
Especially when it turns out that I'm not the worst actor in the squad.
Not by a long shot. We're all laughing so hard at
Mitchell's attempt to project his idea of desperation, which
involves teeth grinding and nostrils flaring, that
Boggs has to reprimand us.
"Pull it together, Four-Five-One," he says
firmly. But you can see him suppressing a smile as he's doublechecking
the next pod. Positioning the Holo to find the best
light in the smoky air. Still facing us as his left foot
steps back onto the orange paving stone. Triggering
the bomb that blows off his legs.
20
It's as if in an instant, a painted window shatters,
revealing the ugly world behind it. Laughter changes to
screams, blood stains pastel stones, real smoke
darkens the special effect stuff made for television.
A second explosion seems to split the air and leaves
my ears ringing. But I can't make out where it came
from.
I reach Boggs first, try to make sense of the torn
flesh, missing limbs, to find something to stem the red flow
from his body. Homes pushes me aside, wrenching open a
first-aid kit. Boggs clutches my wrist. His face, gray
with dying and ash, seems to be receding. But his next
words are an order. "The Holo."
The Holo. I scramble around, digging through chunks of
tile slick with blood, shuddering when I encounter
bits of warm flesh. Find it rammed into a stairwell
with one of Boggs's boots. Retrieve it, wiping it clean with bare
hands as I return it to my commander.
Homes has the stump of Boggs's left thigh cupped by
some sort of compression bandage, but it's already
soaked through. He's trying to tourniquet the other
above the existing knee. The rest of the squad has gathered
in a protective formation around the crew and us.
Finnick's attempting to revive Messalla, who was thrown into a
wall by the explosion. Jackson's barking into a field
communicator, trying unsuccessfully to alert the camp to
send medics, but I know it's too late. As a child,
watching my mother work, I learned that once a pool of blood has
reached a certain size, there's no going back.
I kneel beside Boggs, prepared to repeat the role I
played with Rue, with the morphling from 6, giving him
someone to hold on to as he's released from life. But
Boggs has both hands working the Holo. He's typing in a
command, pressing his thumb to the screen for print
recognition, speaking a string of letters and numbers in
response to a prompt. A green shaft of light bursts
out of the Holo and illuminates his face. He says, "Unfit for
command. Transfer of prime security clearance to Squad
Four-Five-One Soldier Katniss Everdeen." It's all he
can do to turn the Holo toward my face. "Say your
name."
"Katniss Everdeen," I say into the green
shaft. Suddenly, it has me trapped in its light. I can't move or even
blink as images flicker rapidly before me. Scanning
me? Recording me? Blinding me? It vanishes, and I shake
my head to clear it. "What did you do?"
"Prepare to retreat!" Jackson hollers.
Finnick's yelling something back, gesturing to the end
of the block where we entered. Black, oily matter
spouts like a geyser from the street, billowing
between the buildings, creating an impenetrable wall of darkness.
It seems to be neither liquid nor gas, mechanical nor
natural. Surely it's lethal. There's no heading back the way
we came.
Deafening gunfire as Gale and Leeg 1 begin to blast a
path across the stones toward the far end of the
block. I don't know what they're doing until another
bomb, ten yards away, detonates, opening a hole in the street.
Then I realize this is a rudimentary attempt at
minesweeping. Homes and I latch on to Boggs and begin to drag
him after Gale. Agony takes over and he's crying out
in pain and I want to stop, to find a better way, but the
blackness is rising above the buildings, swelling,
rolling at us like a wave.
I'm yanked backward, lose my grip on Boggs, slam into
the stones. Peeta looks down at me, gone, mad,
flashing back into the land of the hijacked, his gun
raised over me, descending to crush my skull. I roll, hear the
butt slam into the street, catch the tumble of bodies
out of the corner of my eye as Mitchell tackles Peeta and
pins him to the ground. But Peeta, always so powerful
and now fueled by tracker jacker insanity, gets his feet
under Mitchell's belly and launches him farther down
the block.
There's a loud snap of a trap as the pod triggers.
Four cables, attached to tracks on the buildings, break
through the stones, dragging up the net that encases
Mitchell. It makes no sense--how instantly bloodied he is--
until we see the barbs sticking from the wire that
encases him. I know it immediately. It decorated the top of the
fence around 12. As I call to him not to move, I gag
on the smell of the blackness, thick, tarlike. The wave has
crested and begun to fall.
Gale and Leeg 1 shoot through the front door lock of
the corner building, then begin to fire at the cables
holding Mitchell's net. Others are restraining Peeta
now. I lunge back to Boggs, and Homes and I drag him inside
the apartment, through someone's pink and white velvet
living room, down a hallway hung with family photos,
the apartment, through someone's pink and white velvet
living room, down a hallway hung with family photos,
onto the marble floor of a kitchen, where we collapse.
Castor and Pollux carry in a writhing Peeta between them.
Somehow Jackson gets cuffs on him, but it only makes
him wilder and they're forced to lock him in a closet.
In the living room, the front door slams, people
shout. Then footsteps pound down the hall as the black
wave roars past the building. From the kitchen, we can
hear the windows groan, shatter. The noxious tar smell
permeates the air. Finnick carries in Messalla. Leeg 1
and Cressida stumble into the room after them, coughing.
"Gale!" I shriek.
He's there, slamming the kitchen door shut behind him,
choking out one word. "Fumes!" Castor and Pollux
grab towels, aprons to stuff in the cracks as Gale
retches into a bright yellow sink.
"Mitchell?" asks Homes. Leeg 1 just shakes
her head.
Boggs forces the Holo into my hand. His lips are
moving, but I can't make out what he's saying. I lean my
ear down to his mouth to catch his harsh whisper.
"Don't trust them. Don't go back. Kill Peeta. Do what you came
to do."
I draw back so I can see his face. "What? Boggs?
Boggs?" His eyes are still open, but dead. Pressed in
my hand, glued to it by his blood, is the Holo.
Peeta's feet slamming into the closet door break up
the ragged breathing of the others. But even as we
listen, his energy seems to ebb. The kicks diminish to
an irregular drumming. Then nothing. I wonder if he, too, is
dead.
"He's gone?" Finnick asks, looking down at
Boggs. I nod. "We need to get out of here. Now. We just set off
a streetful of pods. You can bet they've got us on
surveillance tapes."
"Count on it," says Castor. "All the
streets are covered by surveillance cameras. I bet they set off the black
wave manually when they saw us taping the propo."
"Our radio communicators went dead almost
immediately. Probably an electromagnetic pulse device. But
I'll get us back to camp. Give me the Holo."
Jackson reaches for the unit, but I clutch it to my chest.
"No. Boggs gave it to me," I say.
"Don't be ridiculous," she snaps. Of course,
she thinks it's hers. She's second in command.
"It's true," says Homes. "He
transferred the prime security clearance to her while he was dying. I saw
it."
"Why would he do that?" demands Jackson.
Why indeed? My head's reeling from the ghastly events
of the last five minutes--Boggs mutilated, dying,
dead, Peeta's homicidal rage, Mitchell bloody and
netted and swallowed by that foul black wave. I turn to Boggs,
very badly needing him alive. Suddenly sure that he,
and maybe he alone, is completely on my side. I think of his
last orders....
"Don't trust them. Don't go back. Kill Peeta. Do
what you came to do."
What did he mean? Don't trust who? The rebels? Coin?
The people looking at me right now? I won't go
back, but he must know I can't just fire a bullet
through Peeta's head. Can I? Should I? Did Boggs guess that
what I really came to do is desert and kill Snow on my
own?
I can't work all of this out now, so I just decide to
carry out the first two orders: to not trust anyone and to
move deeper into the Capitol. But how can I justify
this? Make them let me keep the Holo?
"Because I'm on a special mission for President
Coin. I think Boggs was the only one who knew about it."
This in no way convinces Jackson. "To do
what?"
Why not tell them the truth? It's as plausible as
anything I'll come up with. But it must seem like a real
mission, not revenge. "To assassinate President
Snow before the loss of life from this war makes our population
unsustainable."
"I don't believe you," says Jackson.
"As your current commander, I order you to transfer the prime security
clearance over to me."
"No," I say. "That would be in direct
violation of President Coin's orders."
Guns are pointed. Half the squad at Jackson, half at
me. Someone's about to die, when Cressida speaks
up. "It's true. That's why we're here. Plutarch
wants it televised. He thinks if we can film the Mockingjay
assassinating Snow, it will end the war."
This gives even Jackson pause. Then she gestures with
her gun toward the closet. "And why is he here?"
There she has me. I can think of no sane reason that
Coin would send an unstable boy, programmed to kill
me, along on such a key assignment. It really weakens
my story. Cressida comes to my aid again. "Because the
two post-Games interviews with Caesar Flickerman were
shot in President Snow's personal quarters. Plutarch
thinks Peeta may be of some use as a guide in a
location we have little knowledge of."
I want to ask Cressida why she's lying for me, why
she's fighting for us to go on with my self-appointed
mission. Now's not the time.
"We have to go!" says Gale. "I'm
following Katniss. If you don't want to, head back to camp. But let's
move!"
Homes unlocks the closet and heaves an unconscious
Peeta over his shoulder. "Ready."
"Boggs?" says Leeg 1.
"We can't take him. He'd understand," says
Finnick. He frees Boggs's gun from his shoulder and slings the
strap over his own. "Lead on, Soldier
Everdeen."
I don't know how to lead on. I look at the Holo for
direction. It's still activated, but it might as well be dead for
all the good that does me. There's no time for
fiddling around with the buttons, trying to figure out how to work it.
"I don't know how to use this. Boggs said you
would help me," I tell Jackson. "He said I could count on you."
Jackson scowls, snatches the Holo from me, and taps in
a command. An intersection comes up. "If we go
out the kitchen door, there's a small courtyard, then
the back side of another corner apartment unit. We're looking
at an overview of the four streets that meet at the
intersection."
I try to get my bearings as I stare at the cross
section of the map blinking with pods in every direction. And
those are only the pods Plutarch knows about. The Holo
didn't indicate that the block we just left was mined, had
the black geyser, or that the net was made from barbed
wire. Besides that, there may be Peacekeepers to deal
with, now that they know our position. I bite the
inside of my lip, feeling everyone's eyes on me. "Put on your
masks. We're going out the way we came in."
Instant objections. I raise my voice over them.
"If the wave was that powerful, then it may have triggered and
absorbed other pods in our path."
People stop to consider this. Pollux makes a few quick
signs to his brother. "It may have disabled the
cameras as well," Castor translates. "Coated
the lenses."
Gale props one of his boots on the counter and
examines the splatter of black on the toe. Scrapes it with a
kitchen knife from a block on the counter. "It's
not corrosive. I think it was meant to either suffocate or poison us."
"Probably our best shot," says Leeg 1.
Masks go on. Finnick adjusts Peeta's mask over his
lifeless face. Cressida and Leeg 1 prop up a woozy
Messalla between them.
I'm waiting for someone to take the point position
when I remember that's my job now. I push on the kitchen
door and meet with no resistance. A half-inch layer of
the black goo has spread from the living room about threequarters
of the way down the hall. When I gingerly test it with
the toe of my boot, I find it has the consistency of a
gel. I lift my foot and after stretching slightly, it
springs back into place. I take three steps into the gel and look
back. No footprints. It's the first good thing that's
happened today. The gel becomes slightly thicker as I cross the
living room. I ease open the front door, expecting
gallons of the stuff to pour in, but it holds its form.
The pink and orange block seems to have been dipped in
glossy black paint and set out to dry. Paving
stones, buildings, even the rooftops are coated in the
gel. A large teardrop hangs above the street. Two shapes
project from it. A gun barrel and a human hand.
Mitchell. I wait on the sidewalk, staring up at him until the entire
group has joined me.
"If anyone needs to go back, for whatever reason,
now is the time," I say. "No questions asked, no hard
feelings." No one seems inclined to retreat. So I
start moving into the Capitol, knowing we don't have much time.
The gel's deeper here, four to six inches, and makes a
sucking sound each time you pick up your foot, but it still
covers our tracks.
The wave must have been enormous, with tremendous
power behind it, as it's affected several blocks that
lie ahead. And though I tread with care, I think my
instinct was right about its triggering other pods. One block is
sprinkled with the golden bodies of tracker jackers.
They must have been set free only to succumb to the fumes.
A little farther along, an entire apartment building
has collapsed and lies in a mound under the gel. I sprint across
the intersections, holding up a hand for the others to
wait while I look for trouble, but the wave seems to have
dismantled the pods far better than any squad of
rebels could.
On the fifth block, I can tell that we've reached the
point where the wave began to peter out. The gel's only
an inch deep, and I can see baby blue rooftops peeking
out across the next intersection. The afternoon light has
faded, and we badly need to get under cover and form a
plan. I choose an apartment two-thirds of the way down
the block. Homes jimmies the lock, and I order the
others inside. I stay on the street for just a minute, watching
the last of our footprints fade away, then close the
door behind me.
Flashlights built into our guns illuminate a large
living room with mirrored walls that throw our faces back at
us at every turn. Gale checks the windows, which show
no damage, and removes his mask. "It's all right. You can
smell it, but it's not too strong."
The apartment seems to be laid out exactly like the
first one we took refuge in. The gel blacks out any
natural daylight in the front, but some light still
slips through the shutters in the kitchen. Along the hallway are two
bedrooms with baths. A spiral staircase in the living
room leads up to an open space that composes much of the
second floor. There are no windows upstairs, but the
lights have been left on, probably by someone hastily
evacuating. A huge television screen, blank but
glowing softly, occupies one wall. Plush chairs and sofas are
strewn around the room. This is where we congregate,
slump into upholstery, try to catch our breath.
Jackson has her gun trained on Peeta even though he's
still cuffed and unconscious, draped across a
deep-blue sofa where Homes deposited him. What on
earth am I going to do with him? With the crew? With
everybody, frankly, besides Gale and Finnick? Because
I'd rather track down Snow with those two than without
them. But I can't lead ten people through the Capitol
on a pretend mission, even if I could read the Holo. Should I,
could I have sent them back when I had a chance? Or
was it too dangerous? Both to them personally and to my
mission? Maybe I shouldn't have listened to Boggs,
because he might have been in some delusional death
state. Maybe I should just come clean, but then
Jackson would take over and we'd end up back at camp. Where
I'd have Coin to answer to.
Just as the complexity of the mess I've dragged
everybody into begins to overload my brain, a distant chain
of explosions sends a tremor through the room.
"It wasn't close," Jackson assures us.
"A good four or five blocks away."
"Where we left Boggs," says Leeg 1.
Although no one has made a move toward it, the
television flares to life, emitting a high-pitched beeping
sound, bringing half our party to its feet.
"It's all right!" calls Cressida. "It's
just an emergency broadcast. Every Capitol television is automatically
activated for it."
There we are on-screen, just after the bomb took out
Boggs. A voice-over tells the audience what they are
viewing as we try to regroup, react to the black gel
shooting from the street, lose control of the situation. We
watch the chaos that follows until the wave blots out
the cameras. The last thing we see is Gale, alone on the
street, trying to shoot through the cables that hold
Mitchell aloft.
The reporter identifies Gale, Finnick, Boggs, Peeta,
Cressida, and me by name.
"There's no aerial footage. Boggs must have been
right about their hovercraft capacity," says Castor. I
didn't notice this, but I guess it's the kind of thing
a cameraman picks up on.
Coverage continues from the courtyard behind the
apartment where we took shelter. Peacekeepers line
the roof across from our former hideout. Shells are
launched into the row of apartments, setting off the chain of
explosions we heard, and the building collapses into
rubble and dust.
Now we cut to a live feed. A reporter stands on the
roof with the Peacekeepers. Behind her, the apartment
block burns. Firefighters try to control the blaze
with water hoses. We are pronounced dead.
"Finally, a bit of luck," says Homes.
I guess he's right. Certainly it's better than having
the Capitol in pursuit of us. But I just keep imagining how
this will be playing back in 13. Where my mother and
Prim, Hazelle and the kids, Annie, Haymitch, and a whole
lot of people from 13 think that they have just seen
us die.
"My father. He just lost my sister and
now..." says Leeg 1.
We watch as they play the footage over and over. Revel
in their victory, especially over me. Break away to
do a montage of the Mockingjay's rise to rebel
power--I think they've had this part prepared for a while, because
it seems pretty polished--and then go live so a couple
of reporters can discuss my well-deserved violent end.
Later, they promise, Snow will make an official
statement. The screen fades back to a glow.
The rebels made no attempt to break in during the broadcast,
which leads me to believe they think it's true.
If that's so, we really are on our own.
"So, now that we're dead, what's our next
move?" asks Gale.
"Isn't it obvious?" No one even knew Peeta
had regained consciousness. I don't know how long he's been
watching, but by the look of misery on his face, long
enough to see what happened on the street. How he went
mad, tried to bash my head in, and hurled Mitchell
into the pod. He painfully pushes himself up to a sitting
position and directs his words to Gale.
"Our next move...is to kill me."
21
That makes two requests for Peeta's death in less than
an hour.
"Don't be ridiculous," says Jackson.
"I just murdered a member of our squad!"
shouts Peeta.
"You pushed him off you. You couldn't have known
he would trigger the net at that exact spot," says Finnick,
trying to calm him.
"Who cares? He's dead, isn't he?" Tears
begin to run down Peeta's face. "I didn't know. I've never seen
myself like that before. Katniss is right. I'm the
monster. I'm the mutt. I'm the one Snow has turned into a weapon!"
"It's not your fault, Peeta," says Finnick.
"You can't take me with you. It's only a matter
of time before I kill someone else." Peeta looks around at our
conflicted faces. "Maybe you think it's kinder to
just dump me somewhere. Let me take my chances. But that's
the same thing as handing me over to the Capitol. Do
you think you'd be doing me a favor by sending me back
to Snow?"
Peeta. Back in Snow's hands. Tortured and tormented
until no bits of his former self will ever emerge
again.For some reason, the last stanza to "The
Hanging Tree" starts running through my head. The one where the
man wants his lover dead rather than have her face the
evil that awaits her in the world.
Are you, are you
Coming to the tree
Wear a necklace of rope, side by side with me.
Strange things did happen here
No stranger would it be
If we met up at midnight in the hanging tree.
"I'll kill you before that happens," says
Gale. "I promise."
Peeta hesitates, as if considering the reliability of
this offer, and then shakes his head. "It's no good. What
if you're not there to do it? I want one of those
poison pills like the rest of you have."
Nightlock. There's one pill back at camp, in its
special slot on the sleeve of my Mockingjay suit. But there's
another in the breast pocket of my uniform.
Interesting that they didn't issue one to Peeta. Perhaps Coin thought
he might take it before he had the opportunity to kill
me. It's unclear if Peeta means he'd finish himself off now, to
spare us having to murder him, or only if the Capitol
took him prisoner again. In the state he's in, I expect it would
be sooner rather than later. It would certainly make
things easier on the rest of us. Not to have to shoot him. It
would certainly simplify the problem of dealing with
his homicidal episodes.
I don't know if it's the pods, or the fear, or
watching Boggs die, but I feel the arena all around me. It's as if
I've never left, really. Once again I'm battling not
only for my own survival but for Peeta's as well. How satisfying,
how entertaining it would be for Snow to have me kill
him. To have Peeta's death on my conscience for whatever
is left of my life.
"It's not about you," I say. "We're on
a mission. And you're necessary to it." I look to the rest of the group.
"Think we might find some food here?"
Besides the medical kit and cameras, we have nothing
but our uniforms and our weapons.
Half of us stay to guard Peeta or keep an eye out for
Snow's broadcast, while the others hunt for something
to eat. Messalla proves most valuable because he lived
in a near replica of this apartment and knows where
people would be most likely to stash food. Like how
there's a storage space concealed by a mirrored panel in
the bedroom, or how easy it is to pop out the
ventilation screen in the hallway. So even though the kitchen
cupboards are bare, we find over thirty canned goods
and several boxes of cookies.
The hoarding disgusts the soldiers raised in 13.
"Isn't this illegal?" says Leeg 1.
"On the contrary, in the Capitol you'd be
considered stupid not to do it," says Messalla. "Even before the
Quarter Quell, people were starting to stock up on
scarce supplies."
"While others went without," says Leeg 1.
"Right," says Messalla. "That's how it
works here."
"Fortunately, or we wouldn't have dinner,"
says Gale. "Everybody grab a can."
Some of our company seem reluctant to do this, but
it's as good a method as any. I'm really not in the mood
to divvy up everything into eleven equal parts,
factoring in age, body weight, and physical output. I poke around in
the pile, about to settle on some cod chowder, when
Peeta holds out a can to me. "Here."
I take it, not knowing what to expect. The label reads
Lamb Stew.
I press my lips together at the memories of rain
dripping through stones, my inept attempts at flirting, and
the aroma of my favorite Capitol dish in the chilly
air. So some part of it must still be in his head, too. How happy,
how hungry, how close we were when that picnic basket
arrived outside our cave. "Thanks." I pop open the top.
"It even has dried plums." I bend the lid
and use it as a makeshift spoon, scooping a bit into my mouth. Now this
place tastes like the arena, too.
We're passing around a box of fancy cream-filled
cookies when the beeping starts again. The seal of
Panem lights up on the screen and remains there while
the anthem plays. And then they begin to show images of
the dead, just as they did with the tributes in the
arena. They start with the four faces of our TV crew, followed by
Boggs, Gale, Finnick, Peeta, and me. Except for Boggs,
they don't bother with the soldiers from 13, either
because they have no idea who they are or because they
know they won't mean anything to the audience. Then
the man himself appears, seated at his desk, a flag
draped behind him, the fresh white rose gleaming in his
lapel. I think he might have recently had more work
done, because his lips are puffier than usual. And his prep
team really needs to use a lighter hand with his
blush.
Snow congratulates the Peacekeepers on a masterful job,
honors them for ridding the country of the
menace called the Mockingjay. With my death, he
predicts a turning of the tide in the war, since the demoralized
rebels have no one left to follow. And what was I,
really? A poor, unstable girl with a small talent with a bow and
arrow. Not a great thinker, not the mastermind of the
rebellion, merely a face plucked from the rabble because I
had caught the nation's attention with my antics in
the Games. But necessary, so very necessary, because the
rebels have no real leader among them.
Somewhere in District 13, Beetee hits a switch,
because now it's not President Snow but President Coin
who's looking at us. She introduces herself to Panem,
identifies herself as the head of the rebellion, and then
gives my eulogy. Praise for the girl who survived the
Seam and the Hunger Games, then turned a country of
slaves into an army of freedom fighters. "Dead or
alive, Katniss Everdeen will remain the face of this rebellion. If
ever you waver in your resolve, think of the Mockingjay,
and in her you will find the strength you need to rid
Panem of its oppressors."
"I had no idea how much I meant to her," I
say, which brings a laugh from Gale and questioning looks from
the others.
Up comes a heavily doctored photo of me looking beautiful
and fierce with a bunch of flames flickering
behind me. No words. No slogan. My face is all they
need now.
Beetee gives the reins back to a very controlled Snow.
I have the feeling the president thought the
emergency channel was impenetrable, and someone will
end up dead tonight because it was breached.
"Tomorrow morning, when we pull Katniss
Everdeen's body from the ashes, we will see exactly who the
Mockingjay is. A dead girl who could save no one, not
even herself." Seal, anthem, and out.
"Except that you won't find her," says
Finnick to the empty screen, voicing what we're all probably thinking.
The grace period will be brief. Once they dig through
those ashes and come up missing eleven bodies, they'll
know we escaped.
"We can get a head start on them at least,"
I say. Suddenly, I'm so tired. All I want is to lie down on a nearby
green plush sofa and go to sleep. To cocoon myself in
a comforter made of rabbit fur and goose down. Instead, I
pull out the Holo and insist that Jackson talk me
through the most basic commands--which are really about
entering the coordinates of the nearest map grid
intersection--so that I can at least begin to operate the thing
myself. As the Holo projects our surroundings, I feel
my heart sink even further. We must be moving closer to
crucial targets, because the number of pods has
noticeably increased. How can we possibly move forward into
this bouquet of blinking lights without detection? We
can't. And if we can't, we are trapped like birds in a net. I
decide it's best not to adopt some sort of superior
attitude when I'm with these people. Especially when my eyes
keep drifting to that green sofa. So I say, "Any
ideas?"
"Why don't we start by ruling out
possibilities," says Finnick. "The street is not a possibility."
"The rooftops are just as bad as the
street," says Leeg 1.
"We still might have a chance to withdraw, go
back the way we came," says Homes. "But that would mean
a failed mission."
A pang of guilt hits me since I've fabricated said
mission. "It was never intended for all of us to go forward.
You just had the misfortune to be with me."
"Well, that's a moot point. We're with you
now," says Jackson. "So, we can't stay put. We can't move up.
We can't move laterally. I think that just leaves one
option."
"Underground," says Gale.
Underground. Which I hate. Like mines and tunnels and
13. Underground, where I dread dying, which is
stupid because even if I die aboveground, the next
thing they'll do is bury me underground anyway.
The Holo can show subterranean as well as street-level
pods. I see that when we go underground the
clean, dependable lines of the street plan are
interlaced with a twisting, turning mess of tunnels. The pods look
less numerous, though.
Two doors down, a vertical tube connects our row of apartments
to the tunnels. To reach the tube
apartment, we will need to squeeze through a
maintenance shaft that runs the length of the building. We can
enter the shaft through the back of a closet space on
the upper floor.
"Okay, then. Let's make it look like we've never
been here," I say. We erase all signs of our stay. Send the
empty cans down a trash chute, pocket the full ones
for later, flip sofa cushions smeared with blood, wipe traces
of gel from the tiles. There's no fixing the latch on
the front door, but we lock a second bolt, which will at least
keep the door from swinging open on contact.
Finally, there's only Peeta to contend with. He plants
himself on the blue sofa, refusing to budge. "I'm not
going. I'll either disclose your position or hurt someone
else."
"Snow's people will find you," says Finnick.
"Then leave me a pill. I'll only take it if I
have to," says Peeta.
"That's not an option. Come along," says
Jackson.
"Or you'll what? Shoot me?" asks Peeta.
"We'll knock you out and drag you with us,"
says Homes. "Which will both slow us down and endanger us."
"Stop being noble! I don't care if I die!"
He turns to me, pleading now. "Katniss, please. Don't you see, I
want to be out of this?"
The trouble is, I do see. Why can't I just let
him go? Slip him a pill, pull the trigger? Is it because I care too
much about Peeta or too much about letting Snow win?
Have I turned him into a piece in my private Games?
That's despicable, but I'm not sure it's beneath me.
If it's true, it would be kindest to kill Peeta here and now. But
for better or worse, I am not motivated by kindness.
"We're wasting time. Are you coming voluntarily or do we
knock you out?"
Peeta buries his face in his hands for a few moments,
then rises to join us.
"Should we free his hands?" asks Leeg 1.
"No!" Peeta growls at her, drawing his cuffs
in close to his body.
"No," I echo. "But I want the
key." Jackson passes it over without a word. I slip it into my pants
pocket,
where it clicks against the pearl.
When Homes pries open the small metal door to the
maintenance shaft, we encounter another problem.
There's no way the insect shells will be able to fit
through the narrow passage. Castor and Pollux remove them
and detach emergency backup cameras. Each is the size
of a shoe box and probably works about as well.
Messalla can't think of anywhere better to hide the
bulky shells, so we end up dumping them in the closet.
Leaving such an easy trail to follow frustrates me,
but what else can we do?
Even going single file, holding our packs and gear out
to the side, it's a tight fit. We sidestep our way past
the first apartment, and break into the second. In
this apartment, one of the bedrooms has a door marked utility
instead of a bathroom. Behind the door is the room
with the entrance to the tube.
Messalla frowns at the wide circular cover, for a
moment returning to his own fussy world. "It's why no one
ever wants the center unit. Workmen coming and going
whenever and no second bath. But the rent's
considerably cheaper." Then he notices Finnick's
amused expression and adds, "Never mind."
The tube cover's simple to unlatch. A wide ladder with
rubber treads on the steps allows for a swift, easy
descent into the bowels of the city. We gather at the
foot of the ladder, waiting for our eyes to adjust to the dim
strips of lights, breathing in the mixture of
chemicals, mildew, and sewage.
Pollux, pale and sweaty, reaches out and latches on to
Castor's wrist. Like he might fall over if there isn't
someone to steady him.
"My brother worked down here after he became an
Avox," says Castor. Of course. Who else would they get
to maintain these dank, evil-smelling passages mined
with pods? "Took five years before we were able to buy
his way up to ground level. Didn't see the sun
once."
Under better conditions, on a day with fewer horrors
and more rest, someone would surely know what to
say. Instead we all stand there for a long time trying
to formulate a response.
Finally, Peeta turns to Pollux. "Well, then you
just became our most valuable asset." Castor laughs and
Pollux manages a smile.
We're halfway down the first tunnel when I realize
what was so remarkable about the exchange. Peeta
sounded like his old self, the one who could always
think of the right thing to say when nobody else could. Ironic,
encouraging, a little funny, but not at anyone's
expense. I glance back at him as he trudges along under his
guards, Gale and Jackson, his eyes fixed on the
ground, his shoulders hunched forward. So dispirited. But for a
moment, he was really here.
Peeta called it right. Pollux turns out to be worth
ten Holos. There is a simple network of wide tunnels that
directly corresponds to the main street plan above,
underlying the major avenues and cross streets. It's called the
Transfer, since small trucks use it to deliver goods
around the city. During the day, its many pods are
deactivated, but at night it's a minefield. However,
hundreds of additional passages, utility shafts, train tracks,
and drainage tubes form a multilevel maze. Pollux
knows details that would lead to disaster for a newcomer, like
which offshoots might require gas masks or have live
wires or rats the size of beavers. He alerts us to the gush
of water that sweeps through the sewers periodically,
anticipates the time the Avoxes will be changing shifts,
leads us into damp, obscure pipes to dodge the nearly
silent passage of cargo trains. Most important, he has
knowledge of the cameras. There aren't many down in
this gloomy, misty place, except in the Transfer. But we
keep well out of their way.
Under Pollux's guidance we make good time--remarkable
time, if you compare it to our aboveground
travel. After about six hours, fatigue takes over.
It's three in the morning, so I figure we still have a few hours
before our bodies are discovered missing, they search through
the rubble of the whole block of apartments in
case we tried to escape through the shafts, and the
hunt begins.
When I suggest we rest, no one objects. Pollux finds a
small, warm room humming with machines loaded
with levers and dials. He holds up his fingers to
indicate we must be gone in four hours. Jackson works out a
guard schedule, and, since I'm not on the first shift,
I wedge myself in the tight space between Gale and Leeg 1
and go right to sleep.
It seems like only minutes later when Jackson shakes
me awake, tells me I'm on watch. It's six o'clock, and
in one hour we must be on our way. Jackson tells me to
eat a can of food and keep an eye on Pollux, who's
insisted on being on guard the entire night. "He
can't sleep down here." I drag myself into a state of relative
alertness, eat a can of potato and bean stew, and sit
against the wall facing the door. Pollux seems wide awake.
He's probably been reliving those five years of
imprisonment all night. I get out the Holo and manage to input our
grid coordinates and scan the tunnels. As expected,
more pods are registering the closer we move toward the
center of the Capitol. For a while, Pollux and I click
around on the Holo, seeing what traps lie where. When my
head begins to spin, I hand it over to him and lean
back against the wall. I look down at the sleeping soldiers,
crew, and friends, and I wonder how many of us will
ever see the sun again.
When my eyes fall on Peeta, whose head rests right by
my feet, I see he's awake. I wish I could read what's
going on in his mind, that I could go in and untangle
the mess of lies. Then I settle for something I can
accomplish.
"Have you eaten?" I ask. A slight shake of
his head indicates he hasn't. I open a can of chicken and rice
soup and hand it to him, keeping the lid in case he
tries to slit his wrists with it or something. He sits up and tilts
the can, chugging back the soup without really
bothering to chew it. The bottom of the can reflects the lights from
the machines, and I remember something that's been
itching at the back of my mind since yesterday. "Peeta,
when you asked about what happened to Darius and
Lavinia, and Boggs told you it was real, you said you
thought so. Because there was nothing shiny about it.
What did you mean?"
"Oh. I don't know exactly how to explain
it," he tells me. "In the beginning, everything was just complete
confusion. Now I can sort certain things out. I think
there's a pattern emerging. The memories they altered with
the tracker jacker venom have this strange quality about
them. Like they're too intense or the images aren't
stable. You remember what it was like when we were
stung?"
"Trees shattered. There were giant colored
butterflies. I fell in a pit of orange bubbles." I think about it.
"Shiny orange bubbles."
"Right. But nothing about Darius or Lavinia was
like that. I don't think they'd given me any venom yet," he
says.
"Well, that's good, isn't it?" I ask.
"If you can separate the two, then you can figure out what's true."
"Yes. And if I could grow wings, I could fly.
Only people can't grow wings," he says. "Real or not real?"
"Real," I say. "But people don't need
wings to survive."
"Mockingjays do." He finishes the soup and
returns the can to me.
In the fluorescent light, the circles under his eyes
look like bruises. "There's still time. You should sleep."
Unresisting, he lies back down, but just stares at the
needle on one of the dials as it twitches from side to side.
Slowly, as I would with a wounded animal, my hand
stretches out and brushes a wave of hair from his forehead.
He freezes at my touch, but doesn't recoil. So I
continue to gently smooth back his hair. It's the first time I have
voluntarily touched him since the last arena.
"You're still trying to protect me. Real or not
real," he whispers.
"Real," I answer. It seems to require more
explanation. "Because that's what you and I do. Protect each
other." After a minute or so, he drifts off to
sleep.
Shortly before seven, Pollux and I move among the
others, rousing them. There are the usual yawns and
sighs that accompany waking. But my ears are picking
up something else, too. Almost like a hissing. Perhaps
it's only steam escaping a pipe or the far-off whoosh
of one of the trains....
I hush the group to get a better read on it. There's a
hissing, yes, but it's not one extended sound. More like
multiple exhalations that form words. A single word.
Echoing throughout the tunnels. One word. One name.
Repeated over and over again.
"Katniss."
22
The grace period has ended. Perhaps Snow had them
digging through the night. As soon as the fire died
down, anyway. They found Boggs's remains, briefly felt
reassured, and then, as the hours went by without further
trophies, began to suspect. At some point, they
realized that they had been tricked. And President Snow can't
tolerate being made to look like a fool. It doesn't
matter whether they tracked us to the second apartment or
assumed we went directly underground. They know we are
down here now and they've unleashed something, a
pack of mutts probably, bent on finding me.
"Katniss." I jump at the proximity of the sound. Look frantically
for its source, bow loaded, seeking a target
to hit. "Katniss." Peeta's lips are
barely moving, but there's no doubt, the name came out of him. Just when I
thought he seemed a little better, when I thought he
might be inching his way back to me, here is proof of how
deep Snow's poison went. "Katniss." Peeta's
programmed to respond to the hissing chorus, to join in the hunt.
He's beginning to stir. There's no choice. I position
my arrow to penetrate his brain. He'll barely feel a thing.
Suddenly, he's sitting up, eyes wide in alarm, short
of breath. "Katniss!" He whips his head toward me but
doesn't seem to notice my bow, the waiting arrow.
"Katniss! Get out of here!"
I hesitate. His voice is alarmed, but not insane.
"Why? What's making that sound?"
"I don't know. Only that it has to kill
you," says Peeta. "Run! Get out! Go!"
After my own moment of confusion, I conclude I do not
have to shoot him. Relax my bowstring. Take in the
anxious faces around me. "Whatever it is, it's
after me. It might be a good time to split up."
"But we're your guard," says Jackson.
"And your crew," adds Cressida.
"I'm not leaving you," Gale says.
I look at the crew, armed with nothing but cameras and
clipboards. And there's Finnick with two guns and a
trident. I suggest that he give one of his guns to
Castor. Eject the blank cartridge from Peeta's, load it with a real
one, and arm Pollux. Since Gale and I have our bows,
we hand our guns over to Messalla and Cressida. There's
no time to show them anything but how to point and
pull the trigger, but in close quarters, that might be enough.
It's better than being defenseless. Now the only one
without a weapon is Peeta, but anyone whispering my name
with a bunch of mutts doesn't need one anyway.
We leave the room free of everything but our scent.
There's no way to erase that at the moment. I'm
guessing that's how the hissing things are tracking
us, because we haven't left much of a physical trail. The mutts'
noses will be abnormally keen, but possibly the time
we spent slogging through water in drainpipes will help
throw them.
Outside the hum of the room, the hissing becomes more
distinct. But it's also possible to get a better
sense of the mutts' location. They're behind us, still
a fair distance. Snow probably had them released
underground near the place where he found Boggs's
body. Theoretically, we should have a good lead on them,
although they're certain to be much faster than we
are. My mind wanders to the wolflike creatures in the first
arena, the monkeys in the Quarter Quell, the
monstrosities I've witnessed on television over the years, and I
wonder what form these mutts will take. Whatever Snow
thinks will scare me the most.
Pollux and I have worked out a plan for the next leg
of our journey, and since it heads away from the hissing,
I see no reason to alter it. If we move swiftly, maybe
we can reach Snow's mansion before the mutts reach us.
But there's a sloppiness that comes with speed: the
poorly placed boot that results in a splash, the accidental
clang of a gun against a pipe, even my own commands,
issued too loudly for discretion.
We've covered about three more blocks via an overflow
pipe and a section of neglected train track when
the screams begin. Thick, guttural. Bouncing off the
tunnel walls.
"Avoxes," says Peeta immediately.
"That's what Darius sounded like when they tortured him."
"The mutts must have found them," says
Cressida.
"So they're not just after Katniss," says
Leeg 1.
"They'll probably kill anyone. It's just that
they won't stop until they get to her," says Gale. After his hours
studying with Beetee, he is most likely right.
And here I am again. With people dying because of me.
Friends, allies, complete strangers, losing their
lives for the Mockingjay. "Let me go on alone.
Lead them off. I'll transfer the Holo to Jackson. The rest of you can
finish the mission."
"No one's going to agree to that!" says
Jackson in exasperation.
"We're wasting time!" says Finnick.
"Listen," Peeta whispers.
The screams have stopped, and in their absence my name
has rebounded, startling in its proximity. It's
below as well as behind us now. "Katniss."
I nudge Pollux on the shoulder and we start to run.
Trouble is, we had planned to descend to a lower level,
but that's out now. When we come to the steps leading
down, Pollux and I are scanning for a possible alternative
on the Holo when I start gagging.
"Masks on!" orders Jackson.
There's no need for masks. Everyone is breathing the
same air. I'm the only one losing my stew because
I'm the only one reacting to the odor. Drifting up
from the stairwell. Cutting through the sewage. Roses. I begin to
tremble.
I swerve away from the smell and stumble right out
onto the Transfer. Smooth, pastel-colored tiled streets,
just like the ones above, but bordered by white brick
walls instead of homes. A roadway where delivery vehicles
can drive with ease, without the congestion of the
Capitol. Empty now, of everything but us. I swing up my bow
and blow up the first pod with an explosive arrow,
which kills the nest of flesh-eating rats inside. Then I sprint for
the next intersection, where I know one false step
will cause the ground beneath our feet to disintegrate, feeding
us into something labeled Meat Grinder. I shout a
warning to the others to stay with me. I plan for us to skirt
around the corner and then detonate the Meat Grinder,
but another unmarked pod lies in wait.
It happens silently. I would miss it entirely if
Finnick didn't pull me to a stop. "Katniss!"
I whip back around, arrow poised for flight, but what
can be done? Two of Gale's arrows already lie useless
beside the wide shaft of golden light that radiates
from ceiling to floor. Inside, Messalla is as still as a statue,
poised up on the ball of one foot, head tilted back,
held captive by the beam. I can't tell if he's yelling, although his
mouth is stretched wide. We watch, utterly helpless,
as the flesh melts off his body like candle wax.
"Can't help him!" Peeta starts shoving
people forward. "Can't!" Amazingly, he's the only one still
functional
enough to get us moving. I don't know why he's in
control, when he should be flipping out and bashing my brains
in, but that could happen any second. At the pressure
of his hand against my shoulder, I turn away from the grisly
thing that was Messalla; I make my feet go forward,
fast, so fast that I can barely skid to a stop before the next
intersection.
A spray of gunfire brings down a shower of plaster. I
jerk my head from side to side, looking for the pod,
before I turn and see the squad of Peacekeepers
pounding down the Transfer toward us. With the Meat Grinder
pod blocking our way, there's nothing to do but fire
back. They outnumber us two to one, but we've still got six
original members of the Star Squad, who aren't trying
to run and shoot at the same time.
Fish in a barrel, I think, as blossoms of red stain their white
uniforms. Three-quarters of them are down and
dead when more begin to pour in from the side of the
tunnel, the same one I flung myself through to get away
from the smell, from the--
Those aren't Peacekeepers.
They are white, four-limbed, about the size of a
full-grown human, but that's where the comparisons stop.
Naked, with long reptilian tails, arched backs, and
heads that jut forward. They swarm over the Peacekeepers,
living and dead, clamp on to their necks with their
mouths and rip off the helmeted heads. Apparently, having a
Capitol pedigree is as useless here as it was in 13.
It seems to take only seconds before the Peacekeepers are
decapitated. The mutts fall to their bellies and
skitter toward us on all fours.
"This way!" I shout, hugging the wall and
making a sharp right turn to avoid the pod. When everyone's
joined me, I fire into the intersection, and the Meat
Grinder activates. Huge mechanical teeth burst through the
street and chew the tile to dust. That should make it
impossible for the mutts to follow us, but I don't know. The
wolf and monkey mutts I've encountered could leap
unbelievably far.
The hissing burns my ears, and the reek of roses makes
the walls spin.
I grab Pollux's arm. "Forget the mission. What's
the quickest way aboveground?"
There's no time for checking the Holo. We follow
Pollux for about ten yards along the Transfer and go
through a doorway. I'm aware of tile changing to
concrete, of crawling through a tight, stinking pipe onto a ledge
about a foot wide. We're in the main sewer. A yard
below, a poisonous brew of human waste, garbage, and
chemical runoff bubbles by us. Parts of the surface
are on fire, others emit evil-looking clouds of vapor. One look
tells you that if you fall in, you're never coming
out. Moving as quickly as we dare on the slippery ledge, we make
our way to a narrow bridge and cross it. In an alcove
at the far side, Pollux smacks a ladder with his hand and
points up the shaft. This is it. Our way out.
A quick glance at our party tells me something's off.
"Wait! Where are Jackson and Leeg One?"
"They stayed at the Grinder to hold the mutts
back," says Homes.
"What?" I'm lunging back for the bridge,
willing to leave no one to those monsters, when he yanks me back.
"Don't waste their lives, Katniss. It's too late
for them. Look!" Homes nods to the pipe, where the mutts are
slithering onto the ledge.
"Stand back!" Gale shouts. With his
explosive-tipped arrows, he rips the far side of the bridge from its
foundation. The rest sinks into the bubbles, just as
the mutts reach it.
For the first time, I get a good look at them. A mix
of human and lizard and who knows what else. White,
tight reptilian skin smeared with gore, clawed hands
and feet, their faces a mess of conflicting features. Hissing,
shrieking my name now, as their bodies contort in
rage. Lashing out with tails and claws, taking huge chunks of
one another or their own bodies with wide, lathered
mouths, driven mad by their need to destroy me. My scent
must be as evocative to them as theirs is to me. More
so, because despite its toxicity, the mutts begin to throw
themselves into the foul sewer.
Along our bank, everyone opens fire. I choose my
arrows without discretion, sending arrowheads, fire,
explosives into the mutts' bodies. They're mortal, but
only just. No natural thing could keep coming with two dozen
bullets in it. Yes, we can eventually kill them, only
there are so many, an endless supply pouring from the pipe, not
even hesitating to take to the sewage.
But it's not their numbers that make my hands shake
so.
No mutt is good. All are meant to damage you. Some
take your life, like the monkeys. Others your reason,
like the tracker jackers. However, the true
atrocities, the most frightening, incorporate a perverse psychological
twist designed to terrify the victim. The sight of the
wolf mutts with the dead tributes' eyes. The sound of the
jabberjays replicating Prim's tortured screams. The
smell of Snow's roses mixed with the victims' blood. Carried
across the sewer. Cutting through even this foulness.
Making my heart run wild, my skin turn to ice, my lungs
unable to suck air. It's as if Snow's breathing right
in my face, telling me it's time to die.
The others are shouting at me, but I can't seem to
respond. Strong arms lift me as I blast the head off a mutt
whose claws have just grazed my ankle. I'm slammed
into the ladder. Hands shoved against the rungs. Ordered
to climb. My wooden, puppet limbs obey. Movement
slowly brings me back to my senses. I detect one person
above me. Pollux. Peeta and Cressida are below. We
reach a platform. Switch to a second ladder. Rungs slick
with sweat and mildew. At the next platform, my head
has cleared and the reality of what's happened hits me. I
begin frantically pulling people up off the ladder.
Peeta. Cressida. That's it.
What have I done? What have I abandoned the others to?
I'm scrambling back down the ladder when one
of my boots kicks someone.
"Climb!" Gale barks at me. I'm back up,
hauling him in, peering into the gloom for more. "No." Gale turns
my face to him and shakes his head. Uniform shredded.
Gaping wound in the side of his neck.
There's a human cry from below. "Someone's still
alive," I plead.
"No, Katniss. They're not coming," says
Gale. "Only the mutts are."
Unable to accept it, I shine the light from Cressida's
gun down the shaft. Far below, I can just make out
Finnick, struggling to hang on as three mutts tear at
him. As one yanks back his head to take the death bite,
something bizarre happens. It's as if I'm Finnick,
watching images of my life flash by. The mast of a boat, a silver
parachute, Mags laughing, a pink sky, Beetee's
trident, Annie in her wedding dress, waves breaking over rocks.
Then it's over.
I slide the Holo from my belt and choke out
"nightlock, nightlock, nightlock." Release it. Hunch against the
wall with the others as the explosion rocks the
platform and bits of mutt and human flesh shoot out of the pipe
and shower us.
There's a clank as Pollux slams a cover over the pipe
and locks it in place. Pollux, Gale, Cressida, Peeta,
and me. We're all that's left. Later, the human
feelings will come. Now I'm conscious only of an animal need to
keep the remnants of our band alive. "We can't
stop here."
Someone comes up with a bandage. We tie it around
Gale's neck. Get him to his feet. Only one figure
stays huddled against the wall. "Peeta," I
say. There's no response. Has he blacked out? I crouch in front of him,
pulling his cuffed hands from his face.
"Peeta?" His eyes are like black pools, the pupils dilated so that
the blue
irises have all but vanished. The muscles in his
wrists are hard as metal.
"Leave me," he whispers. "I can't hang
on."
"Yes. You can!" I tell him.
Peeta shakes his head. "I'm losing it. I'll go
mad. Like them."
Like the mutts. Like a rabid beast bent on ripping my
throat out. And here, finally here in this place, in these
circumstances, I will really have to kill him. And
Snow will win. Hot, bitter hatred courses through me. Snow has
won too much already today.
It's a long shot, it's suicide maybe, but I do the
only thing I can think of. I lean in and kiss Peeta full on the
mouth. His whole body starts shuddering, but I keep my
lips pressed to his until I have to come up for air. My
hands slide up his wrists to clasp his. "Don't
let him take you from me."
Peeta's panting hard as he fights the nightmares
raging in his head. "No. I don't want to..."
I clench his hands to the point of pain. "Stay
with me."
His pupils contract to pinpoints, dilate again
rapidly, and then return to something resembling normalcy.
"Always," he murmurs.
I help Peeta up and address Pollux. "How far to
the street?" He indicates it's just above us. I climb the last
ladder and push open the lid to someone's utility
room. I'm rising to my feet when a woman throws open the door.
She wears a bright turquoise silk robe embroidered
with exotic birds. Her magenta hair's fluffed up like a cloud
and decorated with gilded butterflies. Grease from the
half-eaten sausage she's holding smears her lipstick. The
expression on her face says she recognizes me. She
opens her mouth to call for help.
Without hesitation, I shoot her through the heart.
23
Who the woman was calling to remains a mystery,
because after searching the apartment, we find she was
alone. Perhaps her cry was meant for a nearby
neighbor, or was simply an expression of fear. At any rate, there's
no one else to hear her.
This apartment would be a classy place to hole up in
for a while, but that's a luxury we can't afford. "How
long do you think we have before they figure out some
of us could've survived?" I ask.
"I think they could be here anytime," Gale
answers. "They knew we were heading for the streets. Probably
the explosion will throw them for a few minutes, then
they'll start looking for our exit point."
I go to a window that overlooks the street, and when I
peek through the blinds, I'm not faced with
Peacekeepers but with a bundled crowd of people going
about their business. During our underground journey,
we have left the evacuated zones far behind and
surfaced in a busy section of the Capitol. This crowd offers our
only chance of escape. I don't have a Holo, but I have
Cressida. She joins me at the window, confirms she knows
our location, and gives me the good news that we
aren't many blocks from the president's mansion.
One glance at my companions tells me this is no time
for a stealth attack on Snow. Gale's still losing blood
from the neck wound, which we haven't even cleaned.
Peeta's sitting on a velvet sofa with his teeth clamped
down on a pillow, either fighting off madness or
containing a scream. Pollux weeps against the mantel of an
ornate fireplace. Cressida stands determinedly at my
side, but she's so pale her lips are bloodless. I'm running
on hate. When the energy for that ebbs, I'll be
worthless.
"Let's check her closets," I say.
In one bedroom we find hundreds of the woman's
outfits, coats, pairs of shoes, a rainbow of wigs, enough
makeup to paint a house. In a bedroom across the hall,
there's a similar selection for men. Perhaps they belong
to her husband. Perhaps to a lover who had the good
luck to be out this morning.
I call the others to dress. At the sight of Peeta's
bloody wrists, I dig in my pocket for the handcuff key, but he
jerks away from me.
"No," he says. "Don't. They help hold
me together."
"You might need your hands," says Gale.
"When I feel myself slipping, I dig my wrists
into them, and the pain helps me focus," says Peeta. I let them
be.
Fortunately, it's cold out, so we can conceal most of
our uniforms and weapons under flowing coats and
cloaks. We hang our boots around our necks by their
laces and hide them, pull on silly shoes to replace them.
The real challenge, of course, is our faces. Cressida
and Pollux run the risk of being recognized by
acquaintances, Gale could be familiar from the propos
and news, and Peeta and I are known by every citizen of
Panem. We hastily help one another apply thick layers
of makeup, pull on wigs and sunglasses. Cressida wraps
scarves over Peeta's and my mouths and noses.
I can feel the clock ticking away, but stop for just a
few moments to stuff pockets with food and first-aid
supplies. "Stay together," I say at the
front door. Then we march right into the street. Snow flurries have begun to
fall. Agitated people swirl around us, speaking of
rebels and hunger and me in their affected Capitol accents.
We cross the street, pass a few more apartments. Just
as we turn the corner, three dozen Peacekeepers sweep
past us. We hop out of their way, as the real citizens
do, wait until the crowd returns to its normal flow, and keep
moving. "Cressida," I whisper. "Can you
think of anywhere?"
"I'm trying," she says.
We cover another block, and the sirens begin. Through
an apartment window, I see an emergency report
and pictures of our faces flashing. They haven't
identified who in our party died yet, because I see Castor and
Finnick among the photos. Soon every passerby will be
as dangerous as a Peacekeeper. "Cressida?"
"There's one place. It's not ideal. But we can
try it," she says. We follow her a few more blocks and turn
through a gate into what looks like a private
residence. It's some kind of shortcut, though, because after walking
through a manicured garden, we come out of another
gate onto a small back street that connects two main
avenues. There are a few poky stores--one that buys
used goods, another that sells fake jewelry. Only a couple
of people are around, and they pay no attention to us.
Cressida begins to babble in a high-pitched voice about
of people are around, and they pay no attention to us.
Cressida begins to babble in a high-pitched voice about
fur undergarments, how essential they are during the
cold months. "Wait until you see the prices! Believe me, it's
half what you pay on the avenues!"
We stop before a grimy storefront filled with
mannequins in furry underwear. The place doesn't even look
open, but Cressida pushes through the front door,
setting off a dissonant chiming. Inside the dim, narrow shop
lined with racks of merchandise, the smell of pelts
fills my nose. Business must be slow, since we're the only
customers. Cressida heads straight for a hunched
figure sitting in the back. I follow, trailing my fingers through
the soft garments as we go.
Behind a counter sits the strangest person I've ever
seen. She's an extreme example of surgical
enhancement gone wrong, for surely not even in the
Capitol could they find this face attractive. The skin has been
pulled back tightly and tattooed with black and gold
stripes. The nose has been flattened until it barely exists. I've
seen cat whiskers on people in the Capitol before, but
none so long. The result is a grotesque, semi-feline mask,
which now squints at us distrustfully.
Cressida takes off her wig, revealing her vines.
"Tigris," she says. "We need help."
Tigris. Deep in my brain, the name rings a bell. She
was a fixture--a younger, less disturbing version of
herself--in the earliest Hunger Games I can remember.
A stylist, I think. I don't remember for which district. Not
12. Then she must have had one operation too many and
crossed the line into repellence.
So this is where stylists go when they've outlived
their use. To sad theme underwear shops where they wait
for death. Out of the public eye.
I stare at her face, wondering if her parents actually
named her Tigris, inspiring her mutilation, or if she
chose the style and changed her name to match her
stripes.
"Plutarch said you could be trusted," adds
Cressida.
Great, she's one of Plutarch's people. So if her first
move isn't to turn us in to the Capitol, it will be to notify
Plutarch, and by extension Coin, of our whereabouts.
No, Tigris's shop is not ideal, but it's all we have at the
moment. If she'll even help us. She's peering between
an old television on her counter and us, as if trying to place
us. To help her, I pull down my scarf, remove my wig,
and step closer so that the light of the screen falls on my
face.
Tigris gives a low growl, not unlike one Buttercup
might greet me with. She slinks down off her stool and
disappears behind a rack of fur-lined leggings.
There's a sound of sliding, and then her hand emerges and
waves us forward. Cressida looks at me, as if to ask Are
you sure? But what choice do we have? Returning to
the streets under these conditions guarantees our
capture or death. I push around the furs and find Tigris has slid
back a panel at the base of the wall. Behind it seems
to be the top of a steep stone stairway. She gestures for
me to enter.
Everything about the situation screams trap. I
have a moment of panic and find myself turning to Tigris,
searching those tawny eyes. Why is she doing this?
She's no Cinna, someone willing to sacrifice herself for
others. This woman was the embodiment of Capitol
shallowness. She was one of the stars of the Hunger Games
until...until she wasn't. So is that it, then?
Bitterness? Hatred? Revenge? Actually, I'm comforted by the idea. A
need for revenge can burn long and hot. Especially if
every glance in a mirror reinforces it.
"Did Snow ban you from the Games?" I ask.
She just stares back at me. Somewhere her tiger tail flicks
with displeasure. "Because I'm going to kill him,
you know." Her mouth spreads into what I take for a smile.
Reassured that this isn't complete madness, I crawl
through the space.
About halfway down the steps, my face runs into a
hanging chain and I pull it, illuminating the hideout with a
flickering fluorescent bulb. It's a small cellar with
no doors or windows. Shallow and wide. Probably just a strip
between two real basements. A place whose existence
could go unnoticed unless you had a very keen eye for
dimensions. It's cold and dank, with piles of pelts
that I'm guessing haven't seen the light of day in years. Unless
Tigris gives us up, I don't believe anyone will find
us here. By the time I reach the concrete floor, my companions
are on the steps. The panel slides back in place. I
hear the underwear rack being adjusted on squeaky wheels.
Tigris padding back to her stool. We have been
swallowed up by her store.
Just in time, too, because Gale looks on the verge of
collapse. We make a bed of pelts, strip off his layers
of weapons, and help him onto his back. At the end of
the cellar, there's a faucet about a foot from the floor with a
drain under it. I turn the tap and, after much
sputtering and a lot of rust, clear water begins to flow. We clean
Gale's neck wound and I realize bandages won't be
enough. He's going to need a few stitches. There's a needle
and sterile thread in the first-aid supplies, but what
we lack is a healer. It crosses my mind to enlist Tigris. As a
stylist, she must know how to work a needle. But that
would leave no one manning the shop, and she's doing
enough already. I accept that I'm probably the most
qualified for the job, grit my teeth, and put in a row of jagged
sutures. It's not pretty but it's functional. I smear
it with medicine and wrap it up. Give him some painkillers. "You
can rest now. It's safe here," I tell him. He
goes out like a light.
While Cressida and Pollux make fur nests for each of
us, I attend to Peeta's wrists. Gently rinsing away the
blood, putting on an antiseptic, and bandaging them
beneath the cuffs. "You've got to keep them clean,
otherwise the infection could spread and--"
"I know what blood poisoning is, Katniss,"
says Peeta. "Even if my mother isn't a healer."
I'm jolted back in time, to another wound, another set
of bandages. "You said that same thing to me in the
first Hunger Games. Real or not real?"
"Real," he says. "And you risked your
life getting the medicine that saved me?"
"Real." I shrug. "You were the reason I
was alive to do it."
"Was I?" The comment throws him into
confusion. Some shiny memory must be fighting for his attention,
because his body tenses and his newly bandaged wrists
strain against the metal cuffs. Then all the energy saps
from his body. "I'm so tired, Katniss."
"Go to sleep," I say. He won't until I've
rearranged his handcuffs and shackled him to one of the stair
supports. It can't be comfortable, lying there with
his arms above his head. But in a few minutes, he drifts off, too.
Cressida and Pollux have made beds for us, arranged
our food and medical supplies, and now ask what I
want to do about setting up a guard. I look at Gale's
pallor, Peeta's restraints. Pollux hasn't slept for days, and
Cressida and I only napped for a few hours. If a troop
of Peacekeepers were to come through that door, we'd be
trapped like rats. We are completely at the mercy of a
decrepit tiger-woman with what I can only hope is an allconsuming
passion for Snow's death.
"I don't honestly think there's any point in
setting up a guard. Let's just try to get some sleep," I say. They
nod numbly, and we all burrow into our pelts. The fire
inside me has flickered out, and with it my strength. I
surrender to the soft, musty fur and oblivion.
I have only one dream I remember. A long and wearying
thing in which I'm trying to get to District 12. The
home I'm seeking is intact, the people alive. Effie
Trinket, conspicuous in a bright pink wig and tailored outfit,
travels with me. I keep trying to ditch her in places,
but she inexplicably reappears at my side, insisting that as
my escort she's responsible for my staying on
schedule. Only the schedule is constantly shifting, derailed by our
lack of a stamp from an official or delayed when Effie
breaks one of her high heels. We camp for days on a
bench in a gray station in District 7, awaiting a
train that never comes. When I wake, somehow I feel even more
drained by this than my usual nighttime forays into
blood and terror.
Cressida, the only person awake, tells me it's late
afternoon. I eat a can of beef stew and wash it down with
a lot of water. Then I lean against the cellar wall,
retracing the events of the last day. Moving death by death.
Counting them up on my fingers. One, two--Mitchell and
Boggs lost on the block. Three--Messalla melted by the
pod. Four, five--Leeg 1 and Jackson sacrificing
themselves at the Meat Grinder. Six, seven, eight--Castor,
Homes, and Finnick being decapitated by the
rose-scented lizard mutts. Eight dead in twenty-four hours. I know
it happened, and yet it doesn't seem real. Surely,
Castor is asleep under that pile of furs, Finnick will come
bounding down the steps in a minute, Boggs will tell
me his plan for our escape.
To believe them dead is to accept I killed them. Okay,
maybe not Mitchell and Boggs--they died on an
actual assignment. But the others lost their lives
defending me on a mission I fabricated. My plot to assassinate
Snow seems so stupid now. So stupid as I sit shivering
here in this cellar, tallying up our losses, fingering the
tassels on the silver knee-high boots I stole from the
woman's home. Oh, yeah--I forgot about that. I killed her, too.
I'm taking out unarmed citizens now.
I think it's time I give myself up.
When everyone finally awakens, I confess. How I lied
about the mission, how I jeopardized everyone in
pursuit of revenge. There's a long silence after I
finish. Then Gale says, "Katniss, we all knew you were lying
about Coin sending you to assassinate Snow."
"You knew, maybe. The soldiers from Thirteen
didn't," I reply.
"Do you really think Jackson believed you had
orders from Coin?" Cressida asks. "Of course she didn't.
But she trusted Boggs, and he'd clearly wanted you to
go on."
"I never even told Boggs what I planned to
do," I say.
"You told everyone in Command!" Gale says.
"It was one of your conditions for being the Mockingjay. 'I kill
Snow.'"
Those seem like two disconnected things. Negotiating
with Coin for the privilege of executing Snow after
the war and this unauthorized flight through the
Capitol. "But not like this," I say. "It's been a complete
disaster."
"I think it would be considered a highly
successful mission," says Gale. "We've infiltrated the enemy camp,
showing that the Capitol's defenses can be breached.
We've managed to get footage of ourselves all over the
Capitol's news. We've thrown the whole city into chaos
trying to find us."
"Trust me, Plutarch's thrilled," Cressida
adds.
"That's because Plutarch doesn't care who
dies," I say. "Not as long as his Games are a success."
Cressida and Gale go round and round trying to
convince me. Pollux nods at their words to back them up.
Only Peeta doesn't offer an opinion.
"What do you think, Peeta?" I finally ask
him.
"I think...you still have no idea. The effect you
can have." He slides his cuffs up the support and pushes
himself to a sitting position. "None of the
people we lost were idiots. They knew what they were doing. They
followed you because they believed you really could
kill Snow."
I don't know why his voice reaches me when no one
else's can. But if he's right, and I think he is, I owe the
others a debt that can only be repaid in one way. I
pull my paper map from a pocket in my uniform and spread it
out on the floor with new resolve. "Where are we,
Cressida?"
Tigris's shop sits about five blocks from the City
Circle and Snow's mansion. We're in easy walking
distance through a zone in which the pods are
deactivated for the residents' safety. We have disguises that,
perhaps with some embellishments from Tigris's furry
stock, could get us safely there. But then what? The
mansion's sure to be heavily guarded, under
round-the-clock camera surveillance, and laced with pods that
could become live at the flick of a switch.
"What we need is to get him out in the
open," Gale says to me. "Then one of us could pick him off."
"Does he ever appear in public anymore?"
asks Peeta.
"I don't think so," says Cressida. "At
least in all the recent speeches I've seen, he's been in the mansion.
Even before the rebels got here. I imagine he became
more vigilant after Finnick aired his crimes."
That's right. It's not just the Tigrises of the
Capitol who hate Snow now, but a web of people who know what
he did to their friends and families. It would have to
be something bordering on miraculous to lure him out.
Something like...
"I bet he'd come out for me," I say.
"If I were captured. He'd want that as public as possible. He'd want my
execution on his front steps." I let this sink
in. "Then Gale could shoot him from the audience."
"No." Peeta shakes his head. "There are
too many alternative endings to that plan. Snow might decide to
keep you and torture information out of you. Or have
you executed publicly without being present. Or kill you
inside the mansion and display your body out
front."
"Gale?" I say.
"It seems like an extreme solution to jump to
immediately," he says. "Maybe if all else fails. Let's keep
thinking."
In the quiet that follows, we hear Tigris's soft
footfall overhead. It must be closing time. She's locking up,
fastening the shutters maybe. A few minutes later, the
panel at the top of the stairs slides open.
"Come up," says a gravelly voice. "I
have some food for you." It's the first time she's talked since we
arrived. Whether it's natural or from years of
practice, I don't know, but there's something in her manner of
speaking that suggests a cat's purr.
As we climb the stairs, Cressida asks, "Did you
contact Plutarch, Tigris?"
"No way to." Tigris shrugs. "He'll
figure out you're in a safe house. Don't worry."
Worry? I feel immensely relieved by the news that I won't
be given--and have to ignore--direct orders from
13. Or make up some viable defense for the decisions
I've made over the last couple of days.
In the shop, the counter holds some stale hunks of
bread, a wedge of moldy cheese, and half a bottle of
mustard. It reminds me that not everyone in the
Capitol has full stomachs these days. I feel obliged to tell Tigris
about our remaining food supplies, but she waves my
objections away. "I eat next to nothing," she says. "And
then, only raw meat." This seems a little too in
character, but I don't question it. I just scrape the mold off the
cheese and divide up the food among the rest of us.
While we eat, we watch the latest Capitol news
coverage. The government has the rebel survivors
narrowed down to the five of us. Huge bounties are
offered for information leading to our capture. They
emphasize how dangerous we are. Show us exchanging
gunfire with the Peacekeepers, although not the mutts
ripping off their heads. Do a tragic tribute to the
woman lying where we left her, with my arrow still in her heart.
Someone has redone her makeup for the cameras.
The rebels let the Capitol broadcast run on
uninterrupted. "Have the rebels made a statement today?" I ask
Tigris. She shakes her head. "I doubt Coin knows
what to do with me now that I'm still alive."
Tigris gives a throaty cackle. "No one knows what
to do with you, girlie." Then she makes me take a pair of
the fur leggings even though I can't pay her for them.
It's the kind of gift you have to accept. And anyway, it's cold
in that cellar.
Downstairs after supper, we continue to rack our
brains for a plan. Nothing good comes up, but we do
agree that we can no longer go out as a group of five
and that we should try to infiltrate the president's mansion
before I turn myself into bait. I consent to that
second point to avoid further argument. If I do decide to give myself
up, it won't require anyone else's permission or
participation.
We change bandages, handcuff Peeta back to his
support, and settle down to sleep. A few hours later, I
slip back into consciousness and become aware of a
quiet conversation. Peeta and Gale. I can't stop myself
from eavesdropping.
"Thanks for the water," Peeta says.
"No problem," Gale replies. "I wake up
ten times a night anyway."
"To make sure Katniss is still here?" asks
Peeta.
"Something like that," Gale admits.
There's a long pause before Peeta speaks again.
"That was funny, what Tigris said. About no one knowing
what to do with her."
"Well, we never have," Gale says.
They both laugh. It's so strange to hear them talking
like this. Almost like friends. Which they're not. Never
have been. Although they're not exactly enemies.
"She loves you, you know," says Peeta.
"She as good as told me after they whipped you."
"Don't believe it," Gale answers. "The
way she kissed you in the Quarter Quell...well, she never kissed me
like that."
"It was just part of the show," Peeta tells
him, although there's an edge of doubt in his voice.
"No, you won her over. Gave up everything for
her. Maybe that's the only way to convince her you love her."
There's a long pause. "I should have volunteered
to take your place in the first Games. Protected her then."
"You couldn't," says Peeta. "She'd
never have forgiven you. You had to take care of her family. They matter
more to her than her life."
"Well, it won't be an issue much longer. I think
it's unlikely all three of us will be alive at the end of the war.
And if we are, I guess it's Katniss's problem. Who to
choose." Gale yawns. "We should get some sleep."
"Yeah." I hear Peeta's handcuffs slide down
the support as he settles in. "I wonder how she'll make up her
mind.""
Oh, that I do know." I can just catch Gale's last
words through the layer of fur. "Katniss will pick whoever she
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